Particulars or waves

So tenuous
Hanging by threads
We go through our ups and downs
But some dips there are no coming back from

The digestive tract didn't have to stop working
The chemo had given us such hope
She took this walk with me
Through the arboretum
Even though she was tired and had to sit down
We rode the wave for 15 months
But one too many days unable to keep liquids down
And we switched to TPN
She dipped too low
And now there is no coming back for her.

She didn't have to get cancer
But she did have to die someday
Would it have been any easier later? Maybe
But it would still have hurt a lot, just the same.

Just like I didn't have to make those particular bad decisions
That led to the end
But the problems behind it all
Had to come out eventually

Light sometimes behaves as a particle,
Other times as waves

Electrons, like reasons, exist in particular whenever we look for them,
But the rest of the time they are infinite waves, undulating in the background of space-time.

What exists, exists. What must happen must happen.
We just never know where, or how.